WHOOPEE i feel a LITTLE BIT better now. i'll tell you why later down in the post. so i have to update FIVE days. okay so.

THURSDAY TWENTY FIVE AUGGIE TWOZEROZEROFIVE
after school, i sent sandra back. nd omfg, somehow i really cant remember what happened. oh gosh, i think my memory is failing on me. i think im going to get a short term memory loss very soon. all i remember is that when i was sending her back we talked nd talked. nd it was quite fun. then in the night, had lao shi's tuition. lao shi said i was guai that tuitiom, cause i concetrated. whippee! oh yes, then my stress level increased too cause it was only four days to the riding show jumping competition on sunday.


FRIDAY TWENTY SIX AUGGIE TWOZEROZEROFIVE
guess what, i sent jiyin home this time! it was superbly fun can! [: gong gong drove us to the drive thru macs. so we got our food. then we took many many spass pics, which later got deleted cause we looked extremely disgustingly retarded with fries hanging out from our mouths, hand phones attached to our ears nd hands on our eyes. haha. fun! oh then i had riding training which was not too good. my coach nd i were argueing like shit. out of anger he called me a brat. i mean i dont blame him, i guess i wasnt trying hard enough for riding. oh gosh debbie, you really have to stop argueing with your coach. to think he still put up with you. i mean debbie, you have to listen to him nd do the things he wants you to do. you have to stop rolling your eyes at him. or blink at him. you just got to put more effort nd hard work. i think im going to listen to coach nowadays. i shall not argue with him. or quarrell with him. oh man, now i really wana try my best for trainings. i promise. really.


SATURDAY TWENTY SEVEN AUGGIE TWOZEROZEROFIVE
had riding training this morning nd it was very good. my jumping on chester was terrific. i think my coach was happy with me. nd i that day i just found out that my coach was giving me a horse that never ridden before to jump for the comp. of course, im jumping chester too. my stress nd pressure level were definately rising up highhhhhhh. cause the day after was my competition. :/


SUNDAY TWENTY EIGHT AUGGIE TWOZEROZEROFIVE
i had to wake up superbly superbly early. it meant i couldnt sleep in for the whole of my weekend. then i could feel like alot of adrenaline in me. it was freaky. cause that day was my comp. it turned out to be a let down. i mean like i cant believe that i didnt get any placings out of my three competitions. i mean like i got eliminated why? cause prolly i did some mistakes. usually i always go home from the competition with a medal or rosette. i just can believe that i didnt get anything. i know i sound like a spoil sport or a sore loser. after the competition. there were still some more going on. i sat at chester's stable floor nd started to use my rainbow markers to doodle nd scribble weird words nd all on my paper. nd i started to think of what i could do if only they gave me another chance. if only i was brave enough to do the warm up nd the first round myself. if only i turned chester properly then i wouldnt have jumped the wrong fence. if only i knew he always fell out on the left, he wouldnt have evaded the jump. if only i sat on my seat in the saddle properly i wouldnt have fallen off. if only i remembered to always slow the horse down just before the fence. i know that i cant change what has happened. i just cant accept the facts that i didnt win. i know its not a good attitude to have. i feel like i have dissapoitned veronique, mommy, daddy, coach nd jenna. im sorry, i'll try harder. im sorry.


MONDAY TWENTY NINE AUGGIE TWOZEROZEROFIVE
okay today. i felt abit happier. jiyin nd i talked [: i told her the part bout my competition nd i started tearing nd um crying? oops too emo :/ jiyin gave me two big hugs nd her shoulder. then i quickly tried to stop cause i felt sooo terrible. thanks jiyin baby [: i love love love you oh so much! but like you've kinda always been there for me. [: you made me feel that i've got you to turn to! bestffs forever <# oh yes, then i sent chloe back today! haha so fun sending my goooood nd besssst friends back! it was so fun! i told chloe stuffs. shush okay. [: haha. then like yeah, we planned something for next year. nd im so happy about it! :D


TUESDAY TODAY THIRTY AUGGIE TWOZEROZEROFIVE
oh man, stupid lao shi wents to change charlotte nd my seats! pooo. that means im not sitting next to charlotte anymore. then charlotte nd i were like oh no, then we cant have our dream talks anymore! haha cause every day in the morning, we always talk nd laugh like retards about our dreams we had last night. haha nd know, i have to sit with hui mei.. i mean like its not a good thing, but i guess its not a bad thing either. well, maybe it does have its bad points. but anyhoos! then charlotte has to sit with tiff khoo. haha so yeaps. nothing much really happened actually. im just relieved that 7th month festival is ending! yay [: no more ghosts floating around! phewpfie.

i feel better. nd quite okay now. [: