hello anonymous! i think i know who you are. good for you that you said what you wanted on my blog. i hope your happy. nd i hope you feel that you've let out whatever that you've been bottling up.

although, you know that its always not a very good idea to just run straight to the point aye? remember once i told you to not just come running with accusations or false pin pointing when you dont even know the real facts nd the truths. but you know what, i guess all anonymouses are really shallow nd are very unsensitive so yeah, i dont really expect you to actually digest what i said earlier. or should i break it down into much simpler english for you? i dont mind at all really. but at the same time, im thinking, why should i waste my time on making it much more easier just for a teeny weeny unimportant anonymous who thinks that she can spoil, ruin or make my life duller.

if you're that person i think whom it is. i think, you've already told me that in real life. so yeaps, i got that once, i dont need a second time. i can understand things much more faster nd easier then you thank you very much.

this is my blog, an online diary. nd its mine. i can do whatever i want to with it. i can choose what to type in it. its not for other people's pleasure. its only for mine. MINE. MY blog, MY pleasure. MY memories are stored in this blog. i dont think i have to repeat again, that its MINE. ALL MINE.

nd another thing, you ask why i act so depressed here. its because i dont want to put on a sad glum face in front of my friends whom i love alot. i dont want them to be affected by my moods. i hate letting other people see through me nd knowing how im feeling, just by acting sad on them. at least only on one person. i see my friends, i dont wana act sad towards them. i want to have fun with them nd laugh with them. not moan nd groan with them?

ANYHOOS. as what goes on in my life. you dont need to know what really happens do you? i dont think so. so why judge it. when you dont really know what really goes on. you dont go horse riding, you're not in the national team too. so who are you of that standard to be commenting of how i should feel. im not trying to say that just cause im in the national team means that i better than you so you should just shut up. what im trying to say is that you're not in the national team, so i dont think you wouldnt know what pressure you get from your coach. what stress you can get from lectures. i bet you dont even have to go for sports physcology. it just builds up on you. nd i cant say my studies are that great either. so you would have to plus that on how you manage sutffs.

but i mean, if you still wana continue thinking in your manner. which i think is so incorrect. i have no means to stop you. its YOUR mind afterall. but i just hope you'll understand whoever you are.

love, debbie.