*before I start, I just want you to know that I wrote this about a month ago but I saved it in my drafts, everyday editing it. For I don't know why. Maybe cause it's for special people! [:


Hello. It is 3.18am now. I can't get to sleep. I keep on listening to the same song over & over.

Jovel told me this a month ago 'I'm happy to see you happy.' I don't know how to describe it but it made me feel warm & that made me think of what had happened the whole of this year, of what happened, of everthing that happened. I miss The Six Of Us so much till it's unexplainable. I know it's hard to believe, but it's true.

2006 is coming. You know, even if my clique & I won't be that close physically anymore we'd still be together spiritually. Yea, I know all of us won't want us to be distant, we won't want a split. It's like on our fronts we don't wanna say it, but inside it'd have been a disaster. I'm dedicating this blog entry to ya'll with much loves from my heart. My six bestest friends. Damn, I'm getting very emo now.

I have been with Charlotte Jiyin Sandra as a clique for two years from primary Five to primary Six. And now, including this sec One year three years.

I met Sandra & Charlotte in primary Five. We got along really well quite quickly. We were really lame, we laughed at stupid little things. I think we even called ourselves the lame buddies or something. Everyday in school we'd talk & laugh non-stop. We were extremely retarded in every way you can think of. We were happy and just.. filled with lots of laughing gas and full of excitement you can say. It was like, every little thing just could amaze us. And we'd start making up ultra spasstic and hiliarious stuff about the thing that was our victim.

I remember Charlotte & I made up this Tv programme for Old Grand mamas & papas and we started immitating how those stroke patients would move. And during lining up we used to act out and sing the Sponge Bob Square Pants theme song with Sarah Cheong. We'd irratate the hell out of Alyssa Than & Charmaine Phua while we were doing that. But they'd laugh too anyway. We used to go to Lao Shi and just pop out of that old woman's face and exclaim HI LAO SHI! then start laughing uncontrollably. I remember that we'd used to laugh alot at Mrs Lim's relieving menstrual cramps exercises that requires doing it on the teacher's table. We'd also risked alot too. Once in the canteen some classmate of ours started crying. Charlotte & I thought of something funny again, we started laughing. Alyssa came over told us to keep quiet cause one of our class mates were upset. I told her we weren't laughing at her. She got stomped on my foot?! Then, Charlotte followed me up to the classroom. Together, we planned our little scheme. We did something that consisted of pure evil-ness and we were filled with glee cause we got our revenge. I still can't forget our first real 'outing' out together. It was funny. It was to the Science Centre cause they were having some exhibition there. My mommy brought us there. We got bored really fast though. I still can remember everything that took place during that thing though. We went to eat Polo Club afterwards. Yea, but now Charlotte & I aren't really that close as before like in primary Five & primary Six due to some miscommuications. Cause that times we were you can say really really close. But whatever it is. I really love the old times. I don't mind us to be like that again. It was really fun. Oh yea, not forgetting when we gave Ms Koh (we named her Dinosaur) a really hard time. A really really really hard time. We were like monsters but the cuter version. One of the really funny but minor incidents was when we were dancing at the back of the class cause we used to sit right at the back (for I don't know what reason of why we started to dance) then Dinosaur said 'Debbie & company stop acting like robots!' We were like.. ? haha. Aw, I love you alot alot alot Charlotte Dearie!

Sandra has changed alot. Haha, her anorexic hair style to this funky wunky hair stlye. She was also basically the laughing part of us in primary Five & primary Six. Like I said on top, we were really lame. But we brought lame-ness to good use. But it was really sad cause Sandra always couldn't join us for the Sponge Bob Square Pants theme song fun cause she was always in the front of the lining up queue. Sandra & I (and Charlotte) were always one of the victims that little Nicole (a primary Two scary girl) liked to prance on. She'd pull our belts and swing us round round and round (she still does that now). She likes Sandra the best though. Somehow, alot of my primary Two/Three juniors think my hair is messy and so that makes me scary. Anyhow, all the retarded and funny stuff that we did in primary Five & primary Six had Sandra as the very much needed spark (cause of her funny vibrating laugh which completed 1/3 of the laughing matter), Charlotte as the lighter (mostly she was the one who found things to start on which took up 1/3 of the laughing matter too) and me as the burner (cause I'd take a while to notice then I'd carry on laughing till no one knows when I'd stop so it completes the other 1/3). Spark, Light, Burn. FIRE. Oh! I also remembered. We called ourselves this C.D.S thing. Then on the last day of primary Six, Sandra brought water balloons! We wrote our best friend notes on it. And then we threw it into this unknown forest thing in the holding school. Then, we threw it at each other. Sigh, the holding school really has alot of memories. I really miss it. But I anyways, I always thought of Sandra as the spunky woman. I triple heart my Sandra Darling!

I met & knew Jiyin ever since primary One. I still have a picture of us together right after our tap dance concert(cause we did tap dance in sc last time) when we were primary One. That pic was like Jiyin & I sitting on the studio floor with our arms around each other staring straight into the camera giving really big tooth-gaped smalls. But now, it's like. At my house, arms around each other, tilting heads and perfect-er smiles which was just before the AcsI gig. We've changed alot. I was just looking at both those pics. Somehow they're just the main pics for our primary One to Sec One. From 6years old to 12years old. Amazing we've known each other for 6years including this year 7 years. (Chloe's my longest ever known friend from K2 till now which makes it 9 years and we've been bestfriends eversince.) And somehow weirdly, on those two pics Jiyin was always on the left and I was on the right. I only started being close to Jiyin in primary Five. Cause that's when she was in the same class as me. We were in the same class as primary Six again along with Charlotte & Sandra. And then from there, we became really close. Haha, there's like just too much to type out what I did with Jiyin. Cause there was so much things I remembered that we did together. Going to concerts together. And weirdly, our moodswings are exactly the same most of the time. It's like when I'm sad depressed fucked up, Jiyin would too. Like cause there would be some same reason or something that happened. And when we're both happy we'd be seriously retarded and crazy! Like snap then scream! Hahaha. And Jiyin, remember that time where like four people cried that night, it was weird. Happened at the same time. And it's so easy to talk with each other. Cause, somehow we have telepathic powers or something and it's like we can just read each other's mind. And it's so absurd too, cause when we hate each other, the hate is to the extreme but when we love each other it's like to the maximum. (Well, that's what Charlotte Jovel Leanne Sandra told me) Haha. And Jiyin practically knows my house so well, she knows which light switch is for which switch. Where to go in my house. It's like her second home? Haha. I don't know how many times she styed over already but I know it's alot. I love you Jiyin! So much! Thanks for being there for me esp this year. We been through ups & downs at the same time too.

I was bestfriends with Leanne in another clique when I was in primary Three to primary Four along with Chloe & Sharmaine. Then in primary Five, Leanne & I we were on really good terms till we were leaders along with Thisbe for Cheer leading. We quarelled, got pissed at each other, you know the usual routine. And then, from that day onwards we weren't talking to each other. Till Racial Harmony Day in primary six, Leanne came up to me and said my indian sari was really nice. Then we were really great with each other. Who knew we would be in the same class in sec One. I remember we'd used to bring ty beanie babies to school and play masak masak & family & doctor along with Rachel Ong, Joan, Sharmaine, Chloe, Sue Ann, Mei Torng, Sarah Tan. I remember we were like all omg after we saw these two Nan Yang guys in primary Five. We named one Dino guy & the other Tux guy. Oh how silly can we get! But whenever I'm around Leanne I feel like so secure. Haha, cause Leanne's the mother. Funny. But I know, I hated it when Leanne was being a bossy boots. She knows too! I lovelovelovelove you Leanne my Wonderwall! Whenever I'm with you I alwaysalwaysalways feel so secure!

I never really noticed Jovel till once in primary Six after one of the oral exams we were the last to go cause our parents came late to pick us up. She decided to talk to me although she hated me alot. She told me some secrets. I was quite shocked. But that was only a one thing. I became really close to you only untill this year. Ah, I don't know what to say. Cause this post is coming to an end, and I feel like crying. I miss sitting infront of you Jovel! ): I used to tell you alot of things and I used to tell you alot of stories about my world and my problems and everything. Untill Ms Tan made me swtich places cause she said we talk too much. I'm glad that we became real close this year and to have known you as a friend. Aw, I just know that you were confident and like I don't know the way you handle stuff was just so amazing, and I looked up to you on that. I think you already know cause I told you all that on the last day of school.

I'll really really never forget all the great times I had with all of you. From getting in trouble (cause of going back late to class), having to face all the stares & bitch talks from everyone else, on that night of Sandra's sleepover, to crying & laughing & being retarded and to the last day of school. I'd never never ever want to forget that. I don't care about our fights, splitting ups, pissed off-ing, bitching, back stabbing. But I've got you all. So it doesn't matter anymore. I love you five.

Kisses & Huggies to Charlotte!
Kisses & Huggies to Jiyin!
Kisses & Huggies to Jovel!
Kisses & Huggies to Leanne!
Kisses & Huggies to Sandra!

I don't know how to thank you so much & I don't know how to say I lovelovelovelovelove you till from here
<----------------------------------------------------> to there. I'd be here for you!

I love you all so so much no matter what happens alright (: I'm going to sleep now. Good night, sweet dreams & sleep tight my sweet hearts. <333